Stay at home Mom

Since about a week before I had Taylor I have gotten to stay home with my kids and I am really enjoying it. I thought when I was working 'what the heck will I do when I'm home, I will get so bored". Well quite the contrary! I try and have a routine each day so that my kids know what to expect and so that I don't pull my hair out. Everyday we wake up around 7 or 8 and I feed Taylor (usually Kade hasn't yet made it out of bed) then Kade comes out and wants to watch Dora or Diego so I put that on for him and make beds. Then I dress my kids and put Taylor down for a nap and feed Kade and I breakfast. Then Kade plays with his toys or watches another episode of toons while I hop in the shower and get ready. Then I have about 3 hours to do laundry, pay bills, blog, or go to lunch with a friend or run some errands then it's back to the house to do lunch and put Kade down for a nap usually around 1:30, then my hubby gets home and I get started on dinner. We eat, I clean the kitchen, bathe kids and put all of our pajamas on so we have a couple hours to hang out and watch TV or do whatever. My days fly by. I'm going to be very sad when I return to work, but I have lots of plans in store and I know God will guide my path. I love my babies and enjoy so much being with them everyday and am proud of the little routine we have down. I didn't realize that when you stay home you have to come up with activities to keep your kids minds growing and also keep them entertained. Plus mama needs her time too..... Here are some things the kids enjoy doing!

2 Month Checkup

Well the 2 Month checkup day was not my favorite. I ended up taking Kade for certain reasons and with him needing to go to the bathroom and Taylor screaming from hunger at the same time while the Dr. and I were attempting to have a conversation, I just knew this visit wasn't going to be pleasant. Taylor got 3 pokes which consisted of 5 shots and man she screamed her head off. She had also been having a lot of snot in her nose making it hard for her to breath and the Dr. told me to try some little noses or if I wanted I could make my own salt water and give her some drops at home. So we made it home and we had lunch and then I decided to put Kade in his room with a movie for nap time. Well I went to Taylor and gave her way too much water up her nose and she stopped breathing on me. It was the worst thing that has ever happened to me. I sucked with the bulb every part of her nose and throat and she finally started breathing. It felt like an eternity that she wasn't breathing and I honestly couldn't tell you how long it was. She didn't turn blue, but she was pale from the shock of it all. I don't know if I could ever forgive myself for what I did. I cried all day after that happened and I think I cried before it even happened actually. I truly feel like the worst mother out there. I ended up calling 911 for them to come check her and they said she looked perfectly fine, but I was hysterical. It was me they were worried about. At one point when she wasn't breathing I thought it was the end, I know that sounds terrible, but I was terrified. I thought my life was over. I thought I had hurt my beautiful child and all I was trying to do was help her to breathe better so she could sleep.
I wasn't going to blog about this, but I thought maybe I can stop someone else from doing the same thing, but I'm positive no one is as stupid as I am. I am so glad my baby is ok. Her and Kade are my life. Without them I could not live. And my great husband was so sweet and has made me feel better about what I did, but there is no excuse for making me feel better, what I did was the worst thing ever. I guess by me writing about it is a way for me to confess that I am not perfect as a mother or at anything else. I know now though that I will not do anything to my children unless I am 100% sure what I am doing.

Well back to my babies Stats:
Weight 12lbs. 1oz
Height 22"
Head Circumference 38.5cm

I love my babies more than anything and the last thing I would ever want to do is harm them. I would rather it be me any day then them. I want nothing more for them in their lives but for them to be HAPPY!