31 Weeks

I am now 31 weeks pregnant and getting anxious by the weeks to meet my baby girl. I have noticed that with this pregnancy I find it harder and I can't help but think it's because she is a she. My pregnancy with Kade was amazing, I felt the best I had ever felt in my entire life. I think that it was the male hormones I was producing to carry a boy, because if you think about it boys or Men are so much more laid back then girls or Women are. I feel like females stress more, but that might be due to the fact that we take on more. I also find myself worrying a lot with this baby, like about me and my health. I don't know if it's because I am soon going to have two little souls to take care of that I want to be the best and healthiest I can be to live a long life because I know my babies need me and I want to be with them forever. Who knows, I am hoping I can grasp onto something that will convince me that God will take care of all that, but it's a thought I cannot get far from. I always want to be there for my children because they are the most important things to me in this entire Universe and no one will ever understand how much I love them. I know we all love our families so much, I'm not taking that away from anyone, but I am just speaking about myself and my situation. I want to feel overwhelmingly happy when she gets here and I know I will, but for now I need to get rid of my worries and completely have faith and trust that God knows my plan and that it is fit for just Crystal. Taylor I promise you and mommy will be forever best friends and I can't wait to hold your little soul in my hands and I am so thankful for the privelage to have you as my daughter. Your not even here yet and my connection with you is stronger than you will ever know. I promise to protect you and Kade and give you both the best possible life I can give you.