Taylor!

39 Weeks Pregnant

Pregnancy is coming to an end, and I feel anxious and excited and also scared. We go in tomorrow at 7:15 so that I can be induced 3 days before my due date. Many people wonder why I do this and it is all because I want Dr. Baca. I feel most comfortable with her and wouldn't want to have a doctor that I don't feel comfortable with, especially going through labor. Plus, things go by much better planned when having a 2 year old. I am gonna miss Kade so much which is why I am anticipating to get out on Tuesday by noon to be home with him just like we did when he was born. I was ready to be home. I feel a little overwhelmed because of all the people that want to come up, and I know I should be grateful and believe me I am, but a big part of me just wants my little family for the night and to stare at our new beautiful baby and enjoy all that (plus get the hang of breastfeeding). I know there are a lot of people that are also anticipating her arrival and I don't want to keep them from that either. Bottom line I should be grateful at all the people wanting to celebrate our joy, and I am. Just a lot of emotions I imagine that any woman would be feeling at a time like this. I'm very ready though for all that lies ahead of us.

Last night Jared and I went on a date one last time before we have to find a sitter for 2. We had a wonderful dinner and then went and saw a movie that I completely did not understand. Finally we went and got Kade from Jared's parents house and we let him sleep with us, it was a little treat for him since he is always asking and also a way for me to take in the last night to have only one child in our home and get some cuddles in with my baby. I can't believe I'm gonna have 2 babies. I feel so blessed and thankful that God has not only blessed me with one beautiful baby, but now two. Well enough of my jabbering. Oh I hope it doesn't hurt too bad, but I'm sure it will. I know what to expect this time, so I guess that is where all my nerves are coming from. Well here's to Taylor's birthday being on 8-9-10....Wish me luck!!!

Special thoughts

Jared is such a sweetheart and he sure does suprise me sometimes. The other day a package came to the house and I was instructed not to go near it becuase it was probably my birthday present so I stayed clear, after all who wants to ruin a suprise for themselves. Well he tricked me, it turned out to be a gift he had ordered for me to have at my baby shower, but it wasn't able to make it in time, so I got to open it that day. He got me a gorgeous diaper bag and I love it. Thank you baby your such a sweetheart and I love you for thinking of me and doing thoughtful things like you do. Your a good husband!

Maternity Pictures

Jessica (photographer) came over for a 2 hour photo shoot at my house to capture my pregnancy before this baby comes. It was such a fun and pleasant experience and she did a great job. Kade wanted in on the action and I'm glad he was into it. Seeing the pictures of Kade and I made me feel so proud of the little family Jared and I have created together. It's cool knowing that neither one of us could have done it without the other, I love that we did this together. I love my family so much and I hope my little Taylor and Kadders will look back in appreciation of how my body helped create them as humans. Pregnancy is such a beautiful thing and I am so thankful for the fact that I am able to experience such a powerful thing that only a woman can do. God is amazing!

31 Weeks

I am now 31 weeks pregnant and getting anxious by the weeks to meet my baby girl. I have noticed that with this pregnancy I find it harder and I can't help but think it's because she is a she. My pregnancy with Kade was amazing, I felt the best I had ever felt in my entire life. I think that it was the male hormones I was producing to carry a boy, because if you think about it boys or Men are so much more laid back then girls or Women are. I feel like females stress more, but that might be due to the fact that we take on more. I also find myself worrying a lot with this baby, like about me and my health. I don't know if it's because I am soon going to have two little souls to take care of that I want to be the best and healthiest I can be to live a long life because I know my babies need me and I want to be with them forever. Who knows, I am hoping I can grasp onto something that will convince me that God will take care of all that, but it's a thought I cannot get far from. I always want to be there for my children because they are the most important things to me in this entire Universe and no one will ever understand how much I love them. I know we all love our families so much, I'm not taking that away from anyone, but I am just speaking about myself and my situation. I want to feel overwhelmingly happy when she gets here and I know I will, but for now I need to get rid of my worries and completely have faith and trust that God knows my plan and that it is fit for just Crystal. Taylor I promise you and mommy will be forever best friends and I can't wait to hold your little soul in my hands and I am so thankful for the privelage to have you as my daughter. Your not even here yet and my connection with you is stronger than you will ever know. I promise to protect you and Kade and give you both the best possible life I can give you.

Pregnancy Pillow????

Ok so I know all my recent posts are about pregnancy, but that seems to be what is consuming my life right now, so I'm gonna blog about it. I really need some help here someone. I want to invest in a pillow for pregnancy and even though I don't have a huge bump yet I still have a little something and I don't want to squish my lemon by lying on my stomach. I do not want to spend a ton of cash on something, especially if this is the last time I might use it. So if anyone out there knows of a good pillow please offer your advice because I came across some and do not want to pay a lot because there are some out there for $200. YIKES!

PREGNANT!

I only took 2 tests!

So Jared and I found out we are pregnant and I should probably make sure that things are good at the Dr. before I make any big announcements or anything, but I just can't help myself. We are very excited, but I feel terrible. I am not as bad with this one as I was with Kade in the sense that I am not hugging the toilet the whole time, but I definitely have the feeling of wanting to puke about 80% of the day. I don't feel as tired with this one yet, but we will see what the coming weeks bring. If this one is a girl I am tempted to be done having kids, but this nagging feeling keeps telling me I can't be done just yet. I feel like crap though and I hate it, I am counting down the days that I will start feeling better (if it ends at 12 weeks like it did with Kade). I have literally been in pajamas and stayed home since Christmas day, luckily I have great friends and family to bring me food and Ginger. Oh the wonderful things that pregnancy brings. Wow, I feel like crap.....HELP someone!

We are very excited!!